hunters blog.

Living in Vacaville

2008-09-03T21:13:00.000-07:00

It isn't how I thought it would be, I thought it would be the worst experience of my life. Don't get me wrong, I dont love it here but I dont hate it either. I only focus on school, and not much else. I checked my grades online today and the class grades up were 100%, 100%, and 98%. Best grades I've ever had in high school. lol. Anyway, my school has me looking at colleges now. Obviously I'm not going to anything great, but im going to apply to McNally-Smith and a community college in NYC. I hope i get into McNally, but if not, life goes on and I will go to NYC. McNally is an intense music college. I could get my BA in production or recording technincs.

Anyway, things have been pretty good up here. Can't wait to come back sometime this year, or next year.

PEACE- Hunter

this summer

2008-08-18T08:21:00.000-07:00

Its here, the end of summer. It never really ends up being as good as you wanted it to be. I'm living in vacaville now, and my best friends live far away from me. One of them.. Too far. I wish I could replay some moments from this summer, over and over. And others I wish I could erase. But either way, in the end, life goes on. I leave on a train in a few hours. Love you guys, hopefully see you in a few weeks. Moy.

Peace.

Vacaville

2008-08-03T20:43:00.000-07:00

Is awsome at night.

camping

2008-07-31T08:17:00.000-07:00

Camping in a backyard with a giant whole in the tent, 3 guys, and a really scared teenage girl. Not a good idea. Hahaha.why? 1) you can't fall asleep because your exited about how much of a shitty sleep your going have. 2) once you fall asleep, you have to wake up to kill cats a raccoons. Then have to make the baby stop crying ha. 3) once the child falls asleep it wakes you up at 6 o'clock because its light outside. Atleast some funny shit went down, and some bonding with my homie.

Anyway, school starts soon and I fucked up way to much this summer. I'm happy I get to start over. Maybe this time I won't fuck up as much. I feel like an idiot though, because I can't see my friends that often, but my real friends stay with me all the way. I can pretty much count them on one hand.

Well, I'm watching Billy Madison. So, I'm out.
X±X

Aptos concrete boat at seacliff beach

2008-07-27T10:14:00.000-07:00

the way life is. what can you do?

2008-07-27T01:23:00.000-07:00

Well life is never easy. Especially now. I'm doing my best to be a good kid, but when ever it looks like I did something wrong, people don't believe when I say it wasn't me. I sort of expected that though, I have a history if lying. Anyway life also sucks right now because one of my really good friends is making terrible choices, and I think my other one hates me. Fuck I miss my brother. Lebanon is too far, come back, I need you.

On the other hand, all this will pass and I need to do my best to take something good away from it all. Be optomistic, things could be worse.

For anyone who reads this blogs sake, something a little lighter now... I really want to go to berkeley this week, so I can hit up amoeba records. But if no one wants to go there, we can just go to the one on haight. I love it there... Just wanted to experience something new.

Well I'm out, peace.

Delicate

2008-07-25T12:04:00.000-07:00

Omg I love bayside so fucking much its undescribable. Love you bayside.

words

2008-07-24T17:15:00.000-07:00

Yeah, Im pretty much sick of all this bullshit going on around me. Drama, and shit. All you can trust in life is yourself, and in some cases one other person. And by that I mean someone you can trust with everything. I have plenty of friends, but would they all be there for me? Would they all listen to me when they ask for advice. No. I still love all of my friends to death, fuck with them-fuck with me. It's just that I've come to realize, if you want something surely done.... Do It Yourself.

I love my family and friends (a select few), and all this is, is me realizing I cant depend on people for everything. Life is mine, Im in control, I make it what I want it to be.

It's all

2008-07-23T10:30:00.000-07:00

All this is, is a big let down. Seen them before, in my own family. Never expected this from you though. You were so into it, got the fucking tattoo, always telling me how you felt like you can experience more in life, than everyone else who's getting fucked up. I don't think it was a lie, I feel like you just got put in a position where you weren't strong enough to say no. But you are sitting here telling me there's no guarantees, meaning you have no self confidence meaning your sobriety is most likely over. I'm not your mom or dad, but you are one of my best friends, and I'm going to do all I can to prevent. But your the only one who can stop it all.

Hope shit works out for you man, love you bro.

Late.

Shit

2008-07-21T21:20:00.000-07:00

I dont really know how to write everything out, all the things that have been going down lately. I got pretty fucked over, and came pretty close to ruining my dads trust with me. Last night, at about 11:10pm, I was with my friend. We were walking to McDonalds from his house, which was a block away. A cop stopped us about half a block from his house. All I'm thinking is, I wonder if this guy is fast, and Im also thinking. Im fucked. See it turns out looking really bad on my part, because i had a backpack full of spraypaint. As a matter of fact, the first thing the cop asked was, "DO you have any spray cans in your backpack?" haha. I said yes, and ended up getting taken home and the cop had to talk to my dad. Shits stupid. I really didnt do anything, and was going to mcdonalds. Whatever, things are all cool now. I got my phone taken away, but I'll get it back soon.

Trying my best still, Hunter.

Thinking

2008-07-19T22:27:00.000-07:00

Ok so a lot of things have been flowing through my mind lately, and I know its probably just one of those dumb urges I always get to do something, and end up not doing it. But ever since I moved to vacaville and started actually being someone of my word, who knows..

Where to start... Well, Im in the process of getting saveeast on its feet. YES, IM GOING TO MAKE IT WORK. I've always wanted a clothing company, I'm just not good with saving start up money. I've caculated it all out, and should have some clean tee's by the end of the summer.

Anyway, I've been thinking a lot about how much I fucked up, and how i have a chance to start over. I really want to get good grades, and pursue what I want to do. I want to be a kid with above a 3.5 gpa. A kid with options. I know I wont be able to go to basically any college, most likely, due to my lack of going to school my first two years in high school. But, I will have somewhere to start if I get good grades, I will also have support from my family, so maybe I will be able to move to SF or NYC to work/live/study music.

I really hope ths isnt me just saying this, because to all of you.. Thats exactly what this is, but I want to prove to myself and you... That I can do it, and that I'm not a fuck up.

Random thoughts...

Frank 151 is sick, and I want a hat from there.
I want to be part of a family, outside of family.
I want more coke zero.

Late, Hunter.

I love you.

2008-07-16T22:20:00.001-07:00

Cut, cut, cut, cutting myself down to piecesToo hard on myself it would seemThat everyone could see myself worth beneathI'll take a stand devise plansFigure it outI'll take my cuts and stitch them upWith sutures of pure cement andAnd I've realizedThere's no right way to goSo what if I'm a sinnerI've got black spots on my liverAnd cancer grown on both my lungsWe take everything we knowAbout ourselves and put them inA diary in a fire ringScrutiny below not me nowI think I'm ready to goBack, back, back, back to the crooner in questionI sure hope you all like my songsWell maybe I put too much talk in my rhymesAnd melodies so stunning brainwashing mindsFrom day one I took pride in myPure and honest intentionsAnd I've realizedThere's no right way to goSo what if I'm a sinnerI've got black spots on my liverAnd cancer grown on both my lungsWe take everything we knowAbout ourselves and put them inA diary in a fire ringScrutiny below not me nowI think I'm ready to goAnd I've realizedThat I don't wanna be judged no moreAnd I've realizedThere's no right way to goSo what if I'm a sinnerI've got black spots on my liverAnd cancer grown on both my lungsWe take everything we knowAbout ourselves and put them inA diary in a fire ringScrutiny below not me nowI think I'm ready to go...I think I'm ready to go!

Bayside

2008-07-15T23:44:00.000-07:00

I love Bayside. I'm so effing exited for their show on oct 20. I swear its gonna be the best thing since sliced bread. The new album is coming out, and its gonna be sick. Oh em gee, I'm gonna die. Well I love you bayside and always will. One day I'll have a car, and I'll listen to Bayside all day.

Anyway, Im an asshole jerk off butt toucher.

<3

Night.

whaddup!>?

2008-07-13T11:08:00.000-07:00

Day 23 with no cigarette. (=]) To tell you the truth, I think about them every single day, and how easy it would be just to go get a pack. So far, I haven't, and I hope to keep it that way.

Anyway, Vacaville has been chill. There's not much to do up there, so my day consists of drums (not complaining), surfing the interweb (wish I could do something more productive), building stuff, drinking coke zero, swimming, and mowing peoples lawns for money. I would kick it with some old friends, but they all seem to have changed a lot, I got a few homies though.

I also read a lot more now, suprisingly most of it is educational to an extent... Subjects such as news, technology, and religion. I would say my new reading habit is due to having nothing better to do, but I think I would do it either way. Being a little smarter than the average person is a good thing. =]

Well, I'm out to find something to do today. Call me/Text me (650-796-1646) if you want, lets hang out!! Adventure anyone??

Well

2008-07-08T23:21:00.000-07:00

The last week or so has been... weird. Im realizing a lot of shit, some of it good, and some of it bad. Realized I dont talk about anything. I figure thats a big problem, but i dont really feel like changing that. Cuz im a little scared of what people will think to be honest. I know i have every single type of helpful person there can be, exept one. Im deprived. What ever, I'm getting over that fact now. Fuck, I still feel like a selfish bastard, but i dont know why.

On to a different subject, I need money, so i started something I did like 4 years ago. Summer Yard Care bitches, aka LMK (lawn mowing kid). Haha, Ima make bank, its 110 degrees here, people dont wanna work outside, so they will hire me!

=D

Just saying shit

2008-07-05T22:06:00.000-07:00

Hmm, where to begin.. Oh yeah, im a fucktard. But besides that, im now addicted to coke zero. [coke phine]. All that shit doesnt matter though. Im just so fucking exited for music, there are hella kids in vacaville that have nothing better to do than get amazingly good at their instruments... so ive heard. Im hoping to start up a band. And I;m also lookin forward to being done with these next two years of high school, so i can get the fuck out of here and go to LA. There are probably about a million bands there, I just need to find the right one, then I'm out on tour.

Random stuff...
Chris Brown is legit.
I wear tight pants again.
I'm a fagot.
I used spell check =] .

rescue me

2008-07-02T13:41:00.001-07:00

Just Breathe
The Midnight air will do you well
Believe
I miss your taste, i miss your smell
The past mistakes that brought you here
Il break the fall for you my dear
Il ask the nurse for bandages
And send me on my way

Rescue me
From everything
I just wanna live
I wish I could breathe

Every other day
I sit and wait for the same bad news
Can you hear me say
Ive got nothing left to lose
Someone please start making sense
and board the door for rats again
Ive seen the worst case scenario
slowly letting go

Rescue me
From everything
I just wanna live
I wish I could breathe

Today..

2008-07-01T15:35:00.000-07:00

Today I realized how big of a resource the internet is, and how wonderful it is! =] It really is a great place for those lacking knowledge... just be careful where you look for it. Anyway, today I was just looking around on the net, and ran by the i'mtalkathon. The i'mtalkathon is (quote from the official site) "It’s a Microsoft program that gives to a social cause every time you use Windows Live Messenger or Windows Live Hotmail."

I thought it was a great idea, so i decided why not take initiative and sit on my computer all day haha. Well all night for me, I cant do it all day.
You should join me! All you have to do is make a windows live account and talk or email with it. =]

Random Stuff...
Hmm, what is the world coming too. - Click Here.

SaveEast

2008-06-27T00:40:00.000-07:00

Ive been thinking a lot about Voice Clothing, and how its not going to go anywhere. So I decided to go for a new goal. Make a clothing company, intertwined with a charity. So here's my first idea...

(50% of all profit goes to charities supporting Africa and the Middle East.)

Vacaville

2008-06-25T08:23:00.000-07:00

So far so good, vacavilles been pretty chill. Definately not like the real bay area, they call this east bay btw. Thats bullshit, i cant see any bay lol. Anyway, shits not bad here. I've just been building a half pipe and stealing the materials from a construction site by my house with some kids i grew up with. Im lookin to kick it with some homies from VCS. Haha they all have cars, swoop me nigga! I miss you bay kids though, Ima be back on saturday.

TIHHTW,IMMMED. =/

ha

2008-06-23T23:16:00.000-07:00

damn we are ghetto as fuck. Especially my slave indonesion child, who is doing all the hard work, like riding the bike.

Travelin through richmond.

2008-06-22T12:04:00.001-07:00

Richmond train/bart station. Its not so bad, and ppl are actually nice as eff. Exept for when I walked out of the train station, it was all bad.

Bad shape

2008-06-21T20:01:00.001-07:00

Ahh ur killin me smallz. I feel like shit, I thought that if I didn't think about the situation, it would sorta go away. But now its all catching up with me. =[

I just want it all to work out, I would do anything for it to be all good.

Petes coffee sounds so good.

2008-06-20T07:14:00.001-07:00

I'm laying in bed right now, thinking about so much stuff. Its 7am, and I'm gonna try get ppl up. But some of them won't ANSWER their phones.

But anyway, today is the day I go to vackytown. Idk how long ill be there. I've just been think about how I'm gonna have hella useless bank when I'm up there. Since I'm probably getting a job. But when I come back, ill be loaded.... I think. I'm also thinkin about all the spare time ill have to put towards a clothing company that I was so close to starting.

Eeek, I'm kinda nervous, just umm everyone come to vackytown for a week. =D

I should make better choices from now on. Peace-- Hunter

Turned Upside Down.

2008-06-17T15:50:00.000-07:00

Well yesterday had its pros and cons, but the good things about it didnt really show, so it was overall bad. Yesterday my mom told me I was grounded and had to be home by 5pm, and I said okay. I got home at around 230 with my friends, and no one was home, so we had a bbq. I made everyone leave at around 5, and right after everyone left my parents showed up. I knew they had to talk to me, but i wasnt really prepared for what they told me. "hunter can you sit down please." "Sure." Then right when I sat down my mom started crying and my step dad told me my dad was on his way to get me, and that I was moving to vacaville.

So now here I am in vacaville, regreting how much of an asshole I was all the time, and how I didnt give a fuck about about school. Even worse, Im not sure if its completely hit me yet. Also, one of my best friends is leaving for like a month, and I didnt even get to say a real goodbye. I fucked up hardcore...... and now i cant go to warped, and my summer is ruined. Its time to start over.

Multimedia message

2008-06-16T20:11:00.001-07:00

I'm going through the worst day of my life, and the only thing I can think of is you.

I fucking hate

2008-06-13T17:04:00.001-07:00

Vacaville. I love my family to death, and that's why I come here. But why the fuck do they have to live a million miles away from people. Its hott and boring, I've done everything there is to do, and I've been here 3 hours.

I'm also stressin about a bunch of random shit, but that's normal....... I guess.

Text me, ill answer within the first five seconds cuz I have nothing to do.

Hmm

2008-06-09T00:09:00.001-07:00

Thinking way to much. Uh oH. Well fuck, I can't wait to road trip and get my mind off things. And can't wait that meet that girl. And can't wait to experience straight up uncut life nigguh.

Well fuckin a

2008-06-07T18:02:00.001-07:00

Its summer and it sorta sucks. Cuz I'm in another terrible situation that only I know about. And on top of that, I'm going to stop smoking cigarettes. Idk right when I quit I'm getting a siq tattoo. And my mom is suprisingly chill with it. Idk. I hope all this shit works out. Hope your not like the rest of them.

damnit

2008-06-03T16:38:00.000-07:00

yesterday : suspended
today : caught with cigarettes
(may have to go to military school)
tomorrow : ???

I love

2008-06-01T11:10:00.000-07:00

Im in love with mayday parade. Doesnt compare to Bayside.

But they are good.

Anyway, im really tired, even though ive slept atleast 5 hours. Idk maybe im stressed? But i dont think so, ha. Hope to have fun today.

Not much of an update.

=]
PEACEhunter

new update

2008-05-21T21:06:00.000-07:00

well life has been chill lately.

im going to LA friday with justin suko. i think itll be siq as fuck. maybe i can even meet up with tara!

umm what else is new...
oh yeah, i was suspended from school today for calling my teacher a dumb fucking bitch.

and i really want a girl friend.
maybe a girl i dont know, or one i already know. idk.

ahhhhh.

peace!

Hey so I havn't updated in a while...

2008-05-13T06:17:00.000-07:00

Hey to everybody, if anybody, who reads my blog. Life has been the same, but also changing dramatically at the same time. I still hang out with all the same people, and still do what i normally do... Exept, I've been skating a lot more, and putting more time into music. I finally found some people, that i think, will be devoted to a band. Im goin' over to Andres house after school to start putting some stuff together.

Anyway, I've realized that people have been doing so much shit for me, even though I'm the most dissapointing asshole on the face of earth. I dont understand what people see in me to help me out like that. For example.... As always, I go to the tongan after school to chill with people, and inhale cancer.... But lately this guy, whose name I dont remember, has been talking to me hella. I guess hes from the church, and hes prolly gonna try to convert me later, but thats not happening. Anyway, I see him like everyday after school now, cuz hes always jcat the church. And you know what he told me?! He said "Hey man you like that drumset in the church? Well you can have it in about a month." I was likeeeeeeeee SIQ NIGGA.

fuck. i dont feel like typing anymore. unless im talking to you! =]
text / IM
650/796-1646 (phone)
hunterxsixfifty (aim)

Random Shit

2008-04-24T06:26:00.000-07:00

hey guys, i dont really need to title this its just a bunch of random shit, wait... maybe ill call it "random shit"...one sec.

Alright, anyway I just thought I'd update this, even though 5 people probably read it. Haha.
The last two weeks have been chill, but really boring too. We've had star testing at school, and that is so boring, theres an hour and a half of each class, 3 classes a day. We get out early its just boring as eff.

Outside of school hasnt been too bad though, Ive been skating a lot, and playing drums a lot after school. Ive been playing more drums now that I tore the ligements in my ankle again...so I cant skate for atleast another week.

I've been traveling all over for the last few weekends, finding new stuff to skate.
We went all over sacramento, and over vacaville (okay, not all that bad), and went to walnut creek...the day after i effed up my ankle, so i couldnt skate. But Cagle and Jake told me I didnt miss much. Also, since I've been out on my ankle, I started filming. I needa buy a wide angle lens, it would help a lot.

Thanks for reading if you did,
Hunter!

another update from the adventurous me

2008-04-17T21:35:00.000-07:00

well shits been chill for the last few weeks. ive found shit that makes me happy. (traveling, skating, not sitting on my fucking ass).

the funny thing is, if other people were me right now they would probably say that last few weeks were shit. why? prolly because ive been grounded for 4 weeks now, ive almost been in two fights (fights i would die in) in a span of 3 days, im going to be suspended from school next week, and my mom found my cigarettes. so yeah. but im having a good time because im not sitting around looking for something to make me happy. I went out and found happiness.

anyway, im hoping this weekend turns out to be all good. friday and saturday im prolly kickin it and skating and playing music and going on adventures. but sunday im going to a demo in walnut creek. gonna be legit.

Note to self : dont let anything ruin this happiness.

until next time,
Hunter =]

this weekenddd

2008-04-13T12:44:00.000-07:00

was chill. friday was sorta bad, but not really. just too much drama now, thats why i dont really just sit around and kick it anymore, cuz id rather be in sf or sac or menlo skating.

anyway, on saturday morning jake stopped by with tal and mike, and we had like a 10 min convo about fuckin some fag up. then when jake left, cagle showed up, and i went with him to his house, did some stuff for his madre, then we took his car and were out to sactown.

IT WAS HOT AS FUCK.
we drove more than we skated... So we went back to vacaville where we stayed that night, (at my dads). And went skating from like 4-6, ate dinner, then skated from 630 to 10. That was pretty chill, cuz downtown vacky has some fun shit to skate.

after skating we went back to my dads, and fell asleep. we woke up at 645 when my little brother was trying to talk to us.we got up ,ate, and left at 750. we were HOME BY 845.
can you say 100mph all the way?

pEACE

new update

2008-04-10T19:42:00.000-07:00

alright. i havnt posted in a while.. so here i am. =]

lately shits been pretty good, been kickin it with some new people and skating hella. i miss kickin it with my homies though, so i gotta do that soon.
I feel like im starting to lose some friends, just from me trying to get into skating.
I had to accept that music isn't going to work out for me, so Im trying to get into skating. That way I can start a shop later or somethin.

Heres some ups and downs of the last week..
Ups-
-Skated a new park in sactown.
-Overall been skating a lot more.
-Went to the city on monday, hit up 3rd and army.
-got new shoes, new pants, and new shirts.
-going to the giants game tomorrow.

Downs-
-I lost a friend, mainly cuz Im a stuborn dumbass... =/
-been grounded for the last two weeks.
-havnt been paid yet.
-dumb ass bitch teacher took my phone...again.

Update again soon... PEACE

okay as i predicted

2008-04-02T15:36:00.000-07:00

the day was pretty good.

skating was sick, but i have better news....

I CANT WAIT FOR BAYSIDES RERELEASE OF THE WALKING WOUNDED, GOLD EDITION, WITH A DVD!

yes, that was me yelling how exited i am through a blog.

anyway, things have only gotten better since april started, i mean yeah im grounded. but idc. my grades are going up, and im not constantly down. im how i used to be. =]

today my brother gave me some pants, they are fucking OG status... im wearin them tomorrow.

PEACE nig nogs, if your down to talk to me.... im down to talk to you. =]

alright

2008-04-02T07:47:00.000-07:00

Now that i know that I have more than one reader, Im going to post some shit thats worth reading.

Today is going to be fucking great, Im going to get up in like 5 seconds, and make some coffee. Then Im going to get my new used board, that someone jacked for me, and go skate all day and be a pro. Haha yeah right, I'll try some new shit tho.

Update on the whole phone situation....
I can read texts but cant send any as of right now, because the phone im using is broken.
So you can text me, but ill probably end up calling you back... =]

PEACE!

ps. look at my legit as myspace, its so simple. i like it. lol

alright heres whats up

2008-03-31T16:32:00.000-07:00

1) Intruder alert by Lupe Fiasco is the most amazing song ever written check it out.
2) I fucked up and put some shit before my family, so I'm probably going to end up moving.
3)Im fucking pissed because I probably cant see bayside on friday.
4)I feel pretty good about quiting, but its one of the hardest things to do EVER.
5)I got another phone taken away in school today. FUCK.
6)Hopefully soon I'll be able to hang out with you and talk to you, because I already miss it. ijust need to get over it or find someone else.
7)I need to go find my shirt, because i realized I dont have one on. lol

PEACE, HUNTER

well

2008-03-31T07:03:00.000-07:00

ive never felt this way before. i cant tell if i feel better or worse, i guess its better for some reason because im not really all that down. im sorry i did all this shit, if you even care. according to all your shit from last nite, your nite was pretty good...
i hope everything works out for you, and sorry i ever got involved. it was a big mistake on my part. i made you think im crazy, my friends think im crazy, and now for some reason jake hates me.

we make mistakes, no regrets.

i care about you, but i dont think we will ever see each other or talk to each other again.

its just now i have no one to read my blog. lol... =[

See ya around, HUNTER.

I love how convenient things work out.

2008-03-29T22:38:00.000-07:00

I dont understand how out of all the things that could happen to me, I got stuck with a soft heart and terrible timing lol. I mean I'm fucked with the whole girl scene, we all know that, but now I feel like I left my friend when he needed me. I know I'm doing the right thing its just hard, and it makes me feel like shit. On top of all ready feeling like shit.

I just hope that maybe one day, some girl, probably some girl I dont know, will realize that I'm a great fucking guy and that I wont be an asshole to her, and that I'll appreciate things she would do for me and hopefully visa versa.

When does trying pay off?

Whatever, thanks for reading my lousy thoughts =]

PEACE, hunter

never back down

2008-03-29T07:41:00.000-07:00

alright nig nogs. yesterday after school started out pretty shitt.. but i went to play drums and it was all good, until everyone was fucking doing something. and i was in lower bmont by myself. then i called justin! and he was like fuck man, im coming to hang out with you. and i was like no, no, and hes like hunter shut the fuck up im coming to hang out with you, and i was like ok. then we chilled and it was sick. and we decided to go see never back down and it was some sick shit. tyler and casey came with us, and we all wanted to fuck something up after the movie. then justin and i walked to my house, and he slept over and i went to bed at 11 like a pussy bitch.

=]

outcome of yesterday = good.

45th post

2008-03-27T23:44:00.000-07:00

Today I came to the conclusion that my problems are nothing.
There are people that have had it way worse than me, and are
still way better than me. I'm embarrassed at the way
I acted and how I only think of myself. I'm an asshole, a
narcissist, a liar, and many other things... and I'd like to
change.

Sorry to people I've treated like shit.

_PEACE_ - hunter

fuck the title

2008-03-27T05:33:00.000-07:00

im such a fucking liar, and i hate every second of it.
i wish i didnt have to lie. because maybe then shit
would be all good.
but instead we live in a world of liars, retards, and
dumb ass bitches.

YIHSMB!!

i dont get it. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

i needa get away from here, before i do something
stupid.

new post

2008-03-26T06:21:00.000-07:00

Alright this is how it goes :
School has been going well, I've been doing all my work.
Mainly because theres nothing bothering me anymore.
The only thing that bothers me, is how much of a dumb
fucking idiot I was. W/e I'm not doing that shit again...

Anyway, I realized I havn't been doing what I usually do,
and I miss it. Yeah it was boring, and sometimes we hated
it, but it was the only thing we knew.

Oh and also, I've been lagging like a fucking bitch.. but I'm
going to get Voice Clothing up soon. Probably within the next
month.

kk, love all of you, even if theres only one reader. =]
PEACE

spring break

2008-03-23T21:03:00.000-07:00

spring break is now over, =[

im cool with that though. it was chill, but had more downs than ups. im happy i got to reunite with nick, hes a hella good friend. Ziad was killin me with LA though, he left me for like a week of spring break.

Spring break lead me to believe that there will be others, and I'll be alright. It used to not seem like it, but now... I'm over it. Even if I dont find others, Im completely chill with it. Cuz i have my family and friends, and MUSIC. Thats somethings I should be putting my effort towards. Because afterall, I'm a sophmore and theres only two more years where I can devote all my time to music. Hopefully thats not true, but if I dont get in to Mcnally or Fullsail (music colleges), I have to look into other things and put music on the side. But im almost positive ill get into one of those schools.

Last thing, I needa get back into the whole school thing. I've been fucking up too much, worrying about things I should worry about. So can anyone help me with the school scene??

Peace..

Oh and one more thing, who wants to chatskies. Im bored and online! Talk to me
Aim : hunterxsixfifty
or myspace message me. =]
Text works too... hehe

why is my life so

2008-03-22T13:35:00.000-07:00

i basically found out, i have no outlet for when im pissed or sad or happy or w/e. there is no way to express myself. i used to think writing it down would help. but it doesnt. music is the only thing that comes close. playing drums helps a lot i guess. when i play everything else just goes away. but right when i stop playing, its all back again. i dont know why im rambling on about this. lol. i only know of one person who reads it. haha.

w/e

vacaville is super fagget mc gay gay.

vacaville sorta just brings out the worst. cuz there is nothing to do. lol vacaville makes TSC my life sound track. hahahahahah

fuck this mayne

im outskies. PEACE.

HFWTBUIJC GFY <- that actually means something. but youll never know what. =]

Vacaville

2008-03-21T19:04:00.000-07:00

My first day in vacaville was weird. I basically just rode my new long board around all day, because my dad went to folsom to check out his condo for work. I got pretty bored today, and we all know what happens when I get bored. I think of the worst things. =[

Anyway, I just ate dinner with my grandparents, they were happy to find out what I'm doing with my life. YEAH RIGHT. =[

They sorta made me realize I've been fucking up to much, and that I should on focus on different things.

Oh and I started reading "killing yourself to live" last night. Its pretty good, its about some guy who travels the world finding rock n roll history, while doing a lot of dumb shit along the way.

just thought i'd update you! =]
PEACE

asdfghjkl;

2008-03-20T19:21:00.000-07:00

i dont know what to do.
AGAIN
happens often, i know.

i keep thinking maybe just Maybe.
But no fucking way in hell
is the way that everything is.
It alright. i know its all me.

w/e today was good i guess.
im tired
im going to vacaville.

bye.

writing to write

2008-03-20T11:32:00.000-07:00

I feel like i have so much to say
but nothing is coming out.
I know theres shit going on,
but I dont know how to explain it.

Anyway, yesterday was chill. I met up
with some people, and we all went to
nicks house. I love nicks house, its so like
sick as fuck. haha.

Justin and I ended up sleeping there,
and nick and justin woke me up at 1am.
TO SMOKE A CIGARETTE. fucking assholes.
haha jk jk it was chill, we had a debate on military
and stuff.

Im going to miss doing things like this when im older.
=[

Random thoughts:
Confused.
Love music.
Wants a macbook.
Nicks house is sick.
and ummm.
eye dee kay.

lemme fill you in...

2008-03-18T10:06:00.000-07:00

ok so... sprng break so far has actually been really good.

This is my days so far mayne.

Friday: We hit up in and out after school, then went to the beach. I found out i can jump like a mother fucker. Then efter the beach we hit up andres and had a ella good BBQ! =] then i went home early that night.

Saturday: I went to play drums, then talia picked me up, and we picked up justin. We hit up like every park in bmont cuz we are gay as fuck. Then we went to nick eye's house and watched blow. (hella good movie) then talia left, and everyone went to my house. we chilled there for a while, then we hit up altays at like 9. Stayed there till like 2, then went to ziads and had a deep convo, like usual. haha

Sunday: I met up with matt, we met up with ziad, then we went to the mall. Ziad bought like 356738$ in new shit. Then we were like, fuck it, lets go to haight. So we went to haight, hella chill day. Exept for when we went back to the mcdonalds parking lot, matts car wasnt there. IT GOT TOWED. so we walked like 3 miles to the towing place, matts parents paid 285$ to get the car back. and yeah.

Monday: it was chill. it was basically like every other day i think... lol

Well

2008-03-17T03:38:00.000-07:00

I tried lol. But you were right, Im a little mad. What ever I dont give a fuck, I'll get over it. I dont see why I have put myself in this situation again. Everytime I try, I fail... Soon, if not now, I'm going to just not open up anymore. I mean this might sound emo as fuck, but I get hurt too. Not down for that. I used to think it would be worth it, maybe it is, but now I'm starting to think again.

Well Im not trying to have a night of bad thoughts, so next subject. I WANT A TATTOO so fucking bad, but its another one of these "IS IT WORTH IT?"

Music - "waiting" by : there for tomorrow
(so good, listen to it.)

what the efff

2008-03-16T10:37:00.000-07:00

fuckin a' im so fucking tired. i went to bed at 2 and woke up at 8. last night was.......idk, it had ups and downs. im pretty confused on whether to act like it never happened... or if it did. w/e shit will work itself out.

blahhh
now im just sitting at my table in the front of my house, on my moms laptop, and looking at the cutest fucking dog ever.

And im going to take a shower and clean some shit up. Text me. PEACE

eh em gee

2008-03-14T07:19:00.001-07:00

so basically im exited as fuck to go on a road trip this summer with ziad.
we are going to LA to see rashad, then we are going to MEXICO! yay.
I want this to happen sooo baddd.

These last few days have been pretty good. I fucking love it.

Why would I let anything come in between me and my friends, and of course being hella chill?
Haha
Fuck that, nothing deserves that. My friends are all i need!

Oh and the beach is TODAY! We get out at 12 pick up nick i, then wait for ziad, then he comes and we go to In N Out, THEN THE BEACH! Im going to climb a fat fucking mountain with Nick.

Haha, today will be great, inshallah.

=] PEACE

715am

2008-03-13T07:15:00.000-07:00

just woke up, matt called me, im about to go to coin star! Too bad i dont have any change, but i have cash and i can buy my favorite thing. Exept I hella needa cut down, cuz I have zero drum money.

Donate to the William Hunter foundation! =]

call/text me ASAP! 650/796-1646

Haha.

Anyways Im sort of Pursing Design both far and wide, so I have to go!

TONIGHT!

2008-03-12T21:21:00.000-07:00

i loved tonight. Justin, Tal, Tammer, Farris, and I went to red robin for ziads bday. We all ordered the same thing, a fat fucking burger. And of course we had to fuck around a little bit. So we went across the parking lot, to Toys R Us! First thing we did there was fuck with the bikes. My personal favorite was the dirtbike bicycle, haha. Ziad was rollin' on 44's with the stick skateboard. What happens after bikes? BALLS, lol. We went to a giant crate of dodgeballs and started throwing them inside the store.

Well, I had fun.

And have a favorite quote stuck in my head... "Its just, I don't want girls to think I suck dick at fucking pussy." LMFAO

PEACE NIG NOGS! <3

P.S Talk to me on myspace, AIM, or text..

Sitting

2008-03-12T16:45:00.001-07:00

Here I am sitting at another bus stop. Bored as fuck. Tals sister is here making fun of me smoking lol. Text me or something I'm really bored.

If i had money...

2008-03-12T06:57:00.000-07:00

I know money doesnt make you happy, but if i had money the first thing I would get is the SJC drum kit I've always wanted, and about a 1000 pairs of silverfox drum sticks.

Atleast i have a kit right now, and mix and match sticks, for the time being. Soon though, I'll have the sickest fucking kit ever, and silverfox will be like here use our sticks. Thanks Brahh.

Build up my fund! Donate to the William Hunter Foundation.
Thanks nig nogs- PEACE

Final fucking-ly

2008-03-11T16:33:00.001-07:00

I just finished playing drums, and broke all my sticks =[ now I'm on my way to SAN MATEO to pick up a new bass head that was supposed to come a fucking month ago. I'm getting something free out of this. ha. Well the train should be here any minute, until next time.....peace

Alright so heres me.

2008-03-10T22:39:00.000-07:00

I gave up, I'm not trying to find anyone. If i meet someone and they take an interest in me, MAYBE just fucking MAYBE. I'll let them in, but im am so not down to fuckin go through this shit again. A few times was enough.

Someone is out there, right?
w/e im going to sleep. im hoping tomorrow turns out better than the last.

Oh yeah, ima quit swearing. haha!

....

2008-03-10T20:48:00.001-07:00

Its like a thousand paper cuts soaked in vinegar.

Dear diary haha

2008-03-10T09:28:00.000-07:00

Lol. I'm sitting in the music hall because I was late to choir. Having a philosophical convo with joe, and talking about our teacher being mormon. I love the audition I'm listening to it now!!!!

Yes

2008-03-09T12:59:00.000-07:00

Today is beautiful. I'm walking with justin from the end of the shores to belmont. We are taking a break at this park by the water its amazing. =] just look at it! (Picture included lol)

Anyways. Prolly gonna chill with nick I today. Today will be good. I swear niggas well I gotta enjoy this beauty. Peace

Blogging back.

2008-03-08T02:30:00.000-08:00

How could you say that shit.

I cant believe

2008-03-07T03:06:00.000-08:00

Its 308am. Theres no sleep in sight.
Im just going to put this all out there.
Because theres to much shit on my mind.
Sorry I know, Im pathetic. Putting my
dumb fucking problems online.

This is how I feel :
FUCK YOU.
This is such a bullshit week.
If I could go back, and relive
everything I've done I'd do it.
Here I am blaming myself,
when i shouldn't do that.
I should... Well actually.
I don't have any other solution.
Just letting you know, one day
when you do want some guy,
who wont be an asshole,
he's not going to be there.
He'll be with his best friends,
the only people he needs,
and by then he would have realized
he was a retard for ever saying one word.

" something better now, something better now awaits.
this wasn't the end, with you we carry on.
well i never had a chance, never had a chance, to tell you.
to tell you your friendship was better than anything else.
why?
the ones that we needed, the ones that we're losing.
why doesn't this make sense at all?
i hope you're listening.
why?
the ones that we needed, the ones that we're losing all of.
the ones that we're losing, all of.

now i sit alone, now i sit alone, in pain.
wishing you were here. you had so much going on.
well i never had a chance, never had the chance, to tell you.
your friendship was better than anything else.
why?
the ones that we needed, the ones that we're losing.
why doesn't this make sense at all?
oh i hope you're listening.
why?
the ones that we needed, the ones that we're losing all of.
the ones that we're losing, all of.
the one...
does this make sense to you?

something better now, something better now awaits.
this wasn't the end, with you we carry on.
well i never had a chance, never had a chance, to tell you.
to tell you your friendship was better than anything else.
why?"

Im trying

2008-03-06T21:54:00.000-08:00

Im trying so hard to keep it together.
I dont know how long I'll last.
Once i break, Im not trying again.
I hate feeling this way.
But shit happens in life.
Just have to learn to cope with it.
Its too hard, i cant hold on...

Im the opposite... I really need someone.

why did?

2008-03-06T16:11:00.000-08:00

why did my day turn to shit, it was perfectly fine. until i had too much time on my hands, and used my dumb fucking brain to think. thinking is the devil lol. how am i supposed to stop thinking about something that is such a big deal to me.

i wish i could go back to like a month ago. and just re-live it.

Schools almost

2008-03-06T13:44:00.000-08:00

Schools almost over.
I'm going to play drums right when the bell rings.
I want to hang out with someone that I'm not sure if I should.
Look at my beatiful class room, in the office

Good Day

2008-03-06T06:44:00.000-08:00

Alright so today is going to be a great day.
I know all my teachers are going to bitch,
like everyday, because i don't do my homework.
But i just woke up, and was like wow, what have
I been doing lately. I'm a happy energetic
person. Why am I letting shit get to me? ha.
If things work out the way I want them to,
thats fuckin sick. But if they dont end up that
way, what ever. I'll live you know.

I do this everytime, let people get to me.
FUCK THAT

Music- Since you've been gone (cover), By A day to remember.

Oh and mental note for the day.
Never lose sight of your dreams,
you never know, they might
come true.
One day, Inshallah, I'll be on tour
with my best friends. Doing nothing
but having fun. One day...

Well

2008-03-05T09:35:00.001-08:00

I feel like shit. I'm in the health aid. Just laying here.

I'm so fucking dumb.
=[

Drums, school, and me.

2008-03-05T06:43:00.000-08:00

I'm so tired, but I want to start my day.
Just to get my dumb fucking mind, off of some shit.
I don't know what I'm going to do today.
I'm going to school, but drums all day, sounds amazing.
So i might just leave right when I get to school,
or at lunch, or maybe at the end of school.

School is going to suck. I have like 50 projects due.
I didn't do one of them.
I'm such a fucking idiot.
Shit happens.

"Hate, love, and admiration."

friends

2008-03-04T20:14:00.001-08:00

i have so many things on my mind.
a million things running through my head
all at a million miles an hour.

i need to either solve it or get away from it.
and ive chosen to face it. i wanted to fucking
hop on a plane and just be out. i would sell
everything i have, and take the money for
cigarettes food and shelter. lol.

but since i have the greatest friends in the world
im just gonna deal with it. because i have them.

so now i can sell a few things, and not everything.
Why would i sell anything period?
because it costs money for cigarettes. =]

Police

2008-03-04T16:29:00.000-08:00

Today definately had its ups and downs.
So I'm just gonna make a list of them.

UPs-

Ziad and I left school at lunch, and went to get food, and go to band practice.

Talia picked us up, and we went to hang out. We washed her car. ha ha

DOWNs-

I had to go to school today.
I couldn't have band practice.
I got searched by cops, and my vice principle.
I have to wait for the stupid call that says "William Lee cut periods 5&6."
I could have chilled till like 9, but I'm already home.

Quote "Never, never, never give up."- Winston Churchill

omg

2008-03-03T22:37:00.000-08:00

I have so much hate, but also so much love.

Too good to be true, to true to be good.

FUCK

Today was good. Im just down. AGAIN. i really needa stop doing that dont you think? I do.
Idk why I always have so much shit on my shoulders. Maybe because I love helping people.

If all else fails, I'm going to college, and I'm gonna be a bomb ass therapist. Im not some shady ass person whos like omg therapist thatd be so fun, i geta like help and stuff. yes.

FUCk that im gonna be a hella good therapist. ahah
thats not gay.

Weekend to Weekday

2008-03-03T07:44:00.001-08:00

Well I wouldn't say that this weekend was the most exiting, but it had its moments. I went to the beach, and it was fucking beautiful. I also got to hang out with all my friends, even though some of them, or all of them, were going through some tough shit.

Now I'm sitting in the great Carlmont High School library. On top of being in one stupid fucking place right now, the computers dont even have myspace. I could get on, but it's not worth it.

Oh yeah, I sent mail today. It was thrilling. =]

I dont know what to do...

2008-03-02T18:15:00.000-08:00

I'm so confused. Well then again I always am. Probably just so much shit running through my head right now, like always. I need to stop thinking things are worse then they are. I have this habit of making thinks too complicated.

I just need someone, oh yeah- I have Ziad. =]

I love ziad

2008-03-02T11:28:00.001-08:00

Brothers for life.

Haha

2008-02-29T09:33:00.000-08:00

I love having a sub.

morning 2/28

2008-02-28T06:51:00.000-08:00

fuck school i dont want to go, i dont feel well. im watching my siblings today. someone come over after school, and chill with me.

fuckin bored

2008-02-27T20:35:00.000-08:00

ok so i just made one of these widget things, and it was a bitch. but its all good cuz im talkin to ziad. and talia, this little box is linked to my blog, so anything i type on my blog shows up on my myspace. YES! =]

Bayside(11.10.07-928pm)

2007-11-10T21:28:00.000-08:00

Yeah im still loving bayside more and more everyday. and I get to see them TWICE next weekend in SF and SAC (slims/boardwalk) your welcome to join me for SF. Go to Sacramento as well :] two people can stay at my dads house is close to sacramento. 1 of the needs to be a driver tho. hit me up.

11/8/07 940pm

2007-11-08T21:40:00.000-08:00

11/8/07 940pm- havnt updated in a while sorry. umm basically, im chill waiting for tomarrow, waiting for a cigarette, and falling more and more in love with bayside. more updates soon :]

AH! mom im high! (654pm 11/1)

2007-11-01T18:53:00.000-07:00

lol. my mom was asking me if im high today. (bitch) but now im going to eat my bday dinner which consists of kfc and baskin robins pie. (with matt p). peace fucking nigger,

its early...(650am 11/1)

2007-11-01T06:49:00.000-07:00

well i woke up hella bored. and im hella into this widget thing cuz i think its sick as fuck. but maybe you dont, guess what? IDC! lol. ill see most of you at school. peace-hunter

Home Early (9:34pm Wed10/31)

2007-10-31T21:34:00.000-07:00

hey guys, i just got home from belmont. it was pretty gay. there was a sorta kinda party that wasnt really happening. and i turned into an emo fagget. lol. but its chill. im HAPPY now. haha. Whats up with you guys, like my "what am i doing/thinking"blog portal?? lmfao. gimme imput through message or comment :]

At Ziads (5:30pm)

2007-10-31T17:27:00.001-07:00

yeah its true.. im at ziads. chillin watchin him and his little brother play madden 05 like retards. But its cool, cuz im goin out to get candy in like 45 mins. and im gonna EAT IT ALL!! YEE NIGGA!

First Post!

2007-10-31T08:37:00.001-07:00

here i am at school, being bored as fuck. i was supposed to meet up with ziad and olivia at 730. but liv was too tired. its all good though. i got to sit on the bayside social club site for an hour. :]
lol. peace-hunter.